What makes you nervous?

I think I become the most nervous when I know I have to be somewhere in a particular amount of time. I am always trying to leave ample time to get somewhere on time or even early. Traffic drives me nuts, or construction. It is also irritating to find out I have to make a stop on my way. I would much rather do extra things after the appointment. I am a wreck when I have a string of appointments Even if I leave a large cushion of time in between, things tend to get backed up. Like the doctor is running behind or there was a crash between appointments.

It kind of feeds into all my social anxieties. I am very nervous when I go spend time with friends because being around people puts me on edge. Add having to be somewhere by a certain time to meet someone and I am a ball of nervous energy all day. My friends with kids are always late and it makes me feel so much better about my kids always making me late. I do not care if they are late. I understand if they, but if I am I feel like a terrible human being.

Tardiness is penalized a lot in our society. You get written up at work even if it is not your fault. If you get too many in school, you would get detention. (I never did that.) Then doctors will try and work you in or outright cancel your appointment depending how late you are. An appointment for the kids was the worst to miss, especially if we were late due to a meltdown and it is there therapy appointment to work on emotional regulation. It was awful.

I prefer to be on time or early. If someone else is late, then I will have to double check the meeting time multiple times to make sure I am correct. It is a whole thing. I am so afraid of messing the time up.