If there were a biography about you, what would the title be?

My biography would probably be titled something like, “Why Does Everything Have To Be So Difficult?”

I have spent my life always trying to do the right thing and listen when given advice. Things always seem to kick me down. I get up and try again. Then another knock down. You find experts and people to help you and still nothing goes the way it is supposed to. You struggle to get by day to day and things just keep happening.

I graduated college right when the economic recession hit. Life was starting to settle down with my adopted kids and then COVID happened and destroyed everything. Any time things seem to start getting better, something comes along and blows it all up.

I cannot tell you how many mental health professionals and medical doctors I have seen and end up asking them, “What is wrong with me?”

I overthink my entire life trying to find the best course of action and then the course is blown off, trampled, and covered over in concrete. It really makes me believe in karma and that I must have been such a terrible person in a past life to have been reborn into this form and forced to suffer over and over again.

Sorry to be so pessimistic today, but a horrible thing happened yesterday and I am slowly coming to terms with it. I will probably write about it in the future when it is not so raw.

I hope everyone had a lovely Valentine’s Day. I got to spend mine with my mom. It was nice to be able to spend some time together.