birthday party

My youngest has asked for a birthday party. The same kid keeps telling me she does not have any friends. She does not even know who she would invite. I have a lot of concerns about going through with this party idea.

After all the stress and heartache she has gone through this year, I really wish to give her this party that she wants. Laser tag is what she wants and it seems like a pretty reasonable price for a party package for 8.

The problem is her wanting this party and actually inviting people and them not showing up. It makes me so concerned that she might be heartbroken.

I know in the end that we will end up going through with this because if we do not then this will be something thrown in our faces in the future. I will just have to do everything I can to try and be prepared for any disappointment.

We will have to do RSVPs and be prepared to jump into laser tag if we do not have a good turnout.

She is now 18 and I know I cannot protect her anymore from heartache. I just wish she did not still struggle with friendships. Through all the therapy and the social skill training and classes, we just never passed that hurdle.

She fixates on the wrong people to be friends with. She ignores the ones that genuinely enjoy her company and she chases the ones that hurt her. Continuously she spends all her time and energy trying to change the minds of those who do not care. It is the story of her life and it makes me so sad.

Now I plan for a birthday party that might go well and be everything she hoped for. And I prepare for disappointment and the fallout of potential disasters.

At least the cake will be good.